even for a milisecond when i realize that im blind i take/
a moment to assess the situation/
my breath is short to the point of hyperventalation/
the light is breaking - night is taking over/
and im afraid if i lose sight its gonna take me over/
the other side is waitin and i've never been a soldier/
never see me fightin it/ never see me roll over/
im neutral to my over taking, shaking as I stroll with satan/
the evil in my blood is baking yet the heats escaping/
as im turning cold my soul is breaking/
half empty but full hatred/
its hard for me to even try and shake it/ so i learn to take it/
im a germ spread in hospital patients who arnt gonna make it/
the doc that likes to give the news and break it/
and I must continue to replicate my mind state/
I can't handle this weight
ReplyDeleteMy back's broke, I can't stand straight
It's hurting so bad, it's gonna break
Blood running from my wrists, just one kiss
I just want somethin' to miss, somethin' i can risk
As i go on a fucking rampage, brain enraged
As i'm plauged with nightmares
Shit that ain't there
Writing these rhmyes to prove i exist
I swear i ain't fulla shit
It's therapy thats scaring me as i'm starting to see
How many demons live in my closet
My own mosh pit inside of my mind
As this girl gets in my space
Hairs obscuring my face as it's striped away
I lost every fucking thing in every fucking way
What the hell can i gain
Drowning in a ocean of emotion it's all pain
A way to relate to what's been made
Like the story of the blood red blades
I'm pretty fucking close to a fucking overdose
Just saying fuck the throttle
And popping the top off this bottle
I just wanna drown my sorrow